Matthew and I wore Matching red shirts today

Richard is one of the workers here at the hospital. He stopped in to refill some supplies today while I was holding Matthew. I used to think he felt sorry for our family and all we had been through. He would always look at us quietly and smile. But this afternoon I saw something different in his eyes. He told me that he and his wife could not have children and were contemplating adoption. We talked about the various concerns that go along with adoption and invetro-fertilization. Suddenly it dawned on me. Even with all our troubles, the look in Richard�s eyes was envy.